People admit, “What am I doing with my life?” » Twisted Sifter

We all have those moments when things are bad, when we look in the mirror and say to ourselves… “what the hell am I doing with my life?”

And today we’re going to hear from AskReddit users about the times they’ve done just that.

Let’s take a look.

“My boyfriend at the time was in the kitchen arguing with the woman who was cheating on me…

I was literally between them, because they were about to physically attack each other.”

“When I had to carry several garbage bags from the shower to wash myself, there was no place to put them… more garbage bags.

I was actually living in a very small space, but at this point I stopped and really had to think for a moment. A couple of months later they started taking antidepressants.’

“When I realized that I am the only one who complains and regrets about life with my friends.

I feel like I’ve been in the same place for a long time and I hope things are still the same as they have been for a long time. I guess I’ve tricked myself into believing that everything in life will fall into place at the right time, but nothing like this has ever happened.

I’m afraid I’m known as the boy who never left his parents’ house. The one who lived in the shadow of other people just to survive.”

“In the morning, when I saw my reflection sitting in the window in my office and is this it?

This is how my life will be?”.

“I cried at an airport because my flight home was cancelled.

I had a traveling job where I was gone at least 1 week a month and it was causing me depression and anxiety.

A nice lady gave me a hug and thought of a family member or two. Then he told me to quit my job.’

“Working in the kitchen of a seafood restaurant.

It was Sunday night, the restaurant was closed for an hour, I was still on the clock because the cooks and dishwashers have to stay late and clean the whole kitchen every night.

I was wet, hot, hurt. My hands were raw because the dish soap we used eats away at your skin like bleach, and I scrubbed the walls with steel wool. I reeked of raw fish and hushpuppy eggs and sweat. And my boss (the owner) decided to yell at me and threaten to fire me for a small mistake I made. And also my phone bill was due and I didn’t have enough money in the bank to pay it.

I said, “why am I working for a boss who treats me like crap, in a job that physically destroys me, when I don’t make enough to pay ONE BILL I have? ”

I planned to leave that night, literally tell the boss and leave, but he asked me to stay for a week and I mostly agreed because I was too tired to argue with him.

I’ve never worked in a restaurant since, and now when people say to me “But you’re such a great cook, why don’t you work in a restaurant?” I laugh and tell them: “Firstly, because it doesn’t pay enough, and secondly, because I already have it and I wasted it.”

I love to cook, but there is a HUGE difference in the satisfaction you get from cooking whatever you want with complete creative control, versus dropping hushpuppies into a fryer and making the same dozen dishes hundreds of times a night.

“About 12 years ago.

My husband (at the time) was outside, shouting and shouting at the two police officers, he was arrested for breach of peace. He attacked me for checking my phone while we were watching a movie and I called the police.

I was sitting at my dining room table with 2 other police officers and a specialist officer from the domestic a**se unit. My 3 year old son was sleeping upstairs.

They asked me horrible questions, like I was f**ked up? Did he hurt our son? What dawned on me at that moment was the realization that 1) I had endured months of mental illness at the hands of someone who was supposed to love me, and that was now becoming physical, 2) He didn’t raise me. strong mother to put up with this kind of c**p and 3) I need to get my son and myself as far away from this man as possible

The next day I left and never looked back.’

“I used to work nights, go to college days and socialize and sleep…ummm…uh.

I was so tired I was hallucinating while driving. When I finally realized that I had to go back to work and I hadn’t slept since the last time I had to go to work and I was breaking down physically and mentally.

This game, I went to bed and slept for 2 days. And since 2 no-shows without a call was a felony, I was now happily unemployed.”

“He ordered two large pizzas and ate them both sitting in bed.

There is literally no dopamine from any bite.

I decided that food no longer gave me pleasure and I lost 115 kilos from there.”

“When I pawned my wedding ring to buy more pain pills. That particular incident forced me to seek help.

I am now 11 years clean and a few months later I got the ring back. Despite that fact, I needed it and it probably saved my life. Addiction is very bad.’

“A former colleague of mine left the company and is being paid at least 50% more, along with equity and full WFH status.

We had both been with the company for the same amount of time at that point, but I have six years more experience.

I’m looking for a job now.”

12. You can deal with it.

“Days honestly, but lastly when considering buying a house.

The advice was to make sure you’re okay with being there for at least five years before you want to move or it’s a bad decision and it got me thinking about my job and social status and all.

Basically, I don’t want to be here tomorrow, but I’m pretty good and I’ve realized that describes most of my life, I don’t really like it but I can handle it.”